It Only Hurts When I'm Breathing!

I have been so depressed lately that I wanted to burst out but I try to manage and control my emotion. I don't want to end up crying all day and night thinking that I lost someone. I thought I was tough but there is really a part of me that is so weak. I wish I can turn back the time!

The recent conversation I had with my friend Bill was so touching. I was telling him how bad I am but for him, I am such a good person with a good heart. According to him, I tried to pretend to be an asshole/bitch but it wasn't really me. It was the angry part of my heart that I have been holding on for such a long time.

He said, for me to be able to feel happy, I should forget and forgive my ex and his girl. Let go of the anger and hatred I have felt on them. I have been thinking about it and I can't sleep. Sigh, I wish it was so easy to forget.

Bill, you made me cry but thank you so much for giving my mind some lights. Everything was so dark and hopeless!