It Only Hurts When I'm Breathing!

I have been so depressed lately that I wanted to burst out but I try to manage and control my emotion. I don't want to end up crying all day and night thinking that I lost someone. I thought I was tough but there is really a part of me that is so weak. I wish I can turn back the time!

The recent conversation I had with my friend Bill was so touching. I was telling him how bad I am but for him, I am such a good person with a good heart. According to him, I tried to pretend to be an asshole/bitch but it wasn't really me. It was the angry part of my heart that I have been holding on for such a long time.

He said, for me to be able to feel happy, I should forget and forgive my ex and his girl. Let go of the anger and hatred I have felt on them. I have been thinking about it and I can't sleep. Sigh, I wish it was so easy to forget.

Bill, you made me cry but thank you so much for giving my mind some lights. Everything was so dark and hopeless!

"Booty Music Get Fresh" By Deep Side

Lately, I have been listening to this song in our desktop.
I really love the beat! It makes me dance every time I play this.


"Booty Music Get Fresh"

When it be going like that boom boom,
girl i want to put you all up in my room.
I wanna put you all up against that wall.
Throw you on the bed and take your clothes off.
Everybody dont like it slow consider me one of them folk.
Lets get to it,
get to it,
get to it,
get to it.
Kinda crunk and im on this scene a look back and thats my xxxx plus I had a shot of that quick Patron.
Now im in my boxers like botron.
Everybody dont like it slow consider me one of them folk.
And lets do it,
lets do it,
lets do it,
lets do it.
Baby thats the way I like it,
thats the way you like it,
thats the way we like it,
making love to booty music.
Go Leo its your birtday,
Go Virgo its your Birthday,
Go Pisces its your birthday making love to booty music.
Girl I feel all in my bones trying to keep up with that tempo.
Do it all night till your back gets sore till we just cant take it no more.
Girl your xxx like "OH MY GOD!" make it clap back till you give me applause sounded like clap clap clap clap clap clap mhmm when i get in them drawers.
Got you hair in tangles their wrapped around your anckles,
im gripping on your handles,
im hitting on different angles like
10, 5 cent, 10 cent dolla,
10, 5 cent, 10 cent, dolla,
10, 5 cent, 10 cent, dolla.
Now let me see you pop it,
pop it.
Thats the way I like it,
thats the way you like it,
thats the way we like it,
making love to booty music.
Go Aries its your birthday,
Go Libra its your birtday,
Go Scorpio its your birthday making love to booty music.
Now dont stop get it,
get it,
pop that coochie let me hit it.
I wanna rock,
I wanna rock let me get a lil bit of that donkey right.
Now dont stop get it,
get it,
let me put some stank up in it,
I wanna rock,
I wanna rock,
lemme get a lil bit of that donkey right.
Does anyone out there wanna let me get a lil bit of that donkey right? Oooohh Oooohh,
baby thats the way I like it,
thats the way you like it,
thats the we we like it,
making love to booty music.
Go Taurus its your birthday,
Go Capricorn its your birthday,
Go Aquarius its your birthday,
making love to booty music.
Thats the way you like it,
thats the we we like it,
making love to booty music.
Go Taurus its your birthday.
Go Gemini its your birthday,
Go Sag its your birthday,

making love to booty music.

Me and My Sister Rosilie :-)

For the month of June, this picture was my favorite. I shared a pose with my sister Rosilie at the store. Both of us were able to get a free make-up at Gaisano Mall during the wedding fair and exhibit. Lovely brides?

"Bluer Than Blue" by Regine Velasquez

Lately, I have been so stressed that I can't think well.
I have been so irritated with everything!
I am sad and I don't know why!
So, I would like to share this song to you!

"BLUER THAN BLUE"

After you go, I can catch on my reading
After you go, I have lot more time sleeping
And when you go, it looks like thing's gonna be lot easier
Life would be at ease you know
I really should be glad.
Chorus:
But I'm bluer than blue
Sadder than sad
You're the only life this empty room has ever had
Life without you is gonna be
Bluer than blue..
After you go, I have a lot more room in my closet
After you go, I can stay out long if I feel like
And when you go, I can run through half screaming
And no one can ever hear me
I really should be glad
(Repeat Chorus)
I don't have to miss no tv show
I can start my whole life over
Change the numbers on my telephone
but the night will sure be colder.
(Repeat Chorus)
Bluer than blue
Bluer than blue
Bluer than blue..

"Sexy Can I " by Ray J

Sexy Can I

(feat. Yung Berg)

Sexy can I
Yeah, Yeahhh
All we wanna know is....

[Chorus:]
Sexy can I, just pardon my manners.
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (ohhhh)
It's a kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I.
Sexy can I, hit it from the front,
then I hit it from the back.
know you like it like that.
then we take it to the bed, then we take it to the floor
then we chill for a second, then we shake that ass some more
Sexy can I, just pardon my manners.
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (ohhhh)
It's a kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I.

[Yung Berg:]
Lil mama, it's ya boy Youngin
G5 dippin, lui vuitton luggage (ay)
Gotta love it, ya boy so fly
All the ladies go (ohhh) when a nigga go by.
Gucci on the feet, Marc Jacob on the thigh
She wanna ride or die with ya boy in the shi.
That's right, so I let her kiss the prince
so boyfriend, she ain't missed him since.

[Ray J:]
Sexy can I, just pardon my manners.
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (ohhhh)
It's a kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I.
Sexy can I, keep it on the low.
Got a girl at the crib, we can take it to the mo-mo.
You can bring a friend, or you can ride solo.
Let me get my camera, so we can take a photo.
(Oh,ohh,ohh) Now go shawty, go shawty.
Baby when we make love it's like, (Oh,ohh,ohh)
(I don't know what your man is like but shawty all I want to know is...)
sexy can I.

Sexy can I, visit you at work

When you sliding down the pole,
no panties, no shirt.
Then you climb back up the pole,
then you drop and do the splits.
How you make that pussy talk,
Baby damn, you is da shit
(Oh,ohh,ohh) Now look shawty, look shawty.
I make it rain in the club like (Oh,ohh,ohh)
(I don't know what your man is like but baby all I want to know is...)
Sexy can I

Sexy can I, just pardon my manners.
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (ohhhh)
It's a kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I.

[Yung Berg:]
I don't care who's ya boy hittin, or who Ray's melon
When I give it to her, i know that she ain't tellin'
See i'm a go getta and she a go getta
You already know she...
(Sexy can I)
Sexy can I sing for you red-eye
Fresh out the pool no towel
let it air dry.
And if you ain't f**kin' tonight
Man you can watch that tour bus go by

[Chorus:]
Sexy can I, just pardon my manners.
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh baby)
It's a kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I.
Sexy can I, hit it from the front,
then I hit it from the back.
know you like it like that.
then we take it to the bed, then we take it to the floor
then we chill for a second, then were back at it for more
Sexy can I, just pardon my manners.
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (ohhhh)
It's a kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I.

"I'm Alive" by Celine Dion

Mmmmm ... Mmmmm ...
I get wings to fly
Oh, oh ... I'm alive ... Yeah

When you call on me
When I hear you breathe
I get wings to fly
I feel that I'm alive

When you look at me
I can touch the sky
I know that I'm alive

When you bless the day
I just drift away
All my worries die
I'm glad that I'm alive

You've set my heart on fire
Filled me with love
Made me a woman on clouds above

I couldn't get much higher
My spirit takes flight
'Cause I am alive

When you call on me
(When you call on me)
When I hear you breathe
(When I hear you breathe)
I get wings to fly
I feel that I'm alive
(I am alive)

When you reach for me
(When you reach for me)
Raising spirits high
God knows that...

That I'll be the one
Standing by through good and through trying times
And it's only begun
I can't wait for the rest of my life

When you call on me
(When you call on me)
When you reach for me
(When you reach for me)
I get wings to fly
I feel that...

When you bless the day
(When you bless, you bless the day)
I just drift away
(I just drift away)
All my worries die
I know that I'm alive

I get wings to fly
God knows that I'm alive

"Hate That I Love You" by Rihanna feat. Ne-Yo

"Hate That I Love You"

[Rihanna:]
As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I cant stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No….)

[Ne-Yo:]
You wont let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forgive (that I was upset)
Can’t remember what you did

[Rihanna:]
But I hate…
You know exactly what to do
So that I cant stay mad at you
For too long thats wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate…
You know exactly how to touch
So that I dont want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that i adore you

[Rihanna:]
And i hate how much i love you boy (yeah…)
I cant stand how much I need you (I need you…)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoa..)
But I just cant let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

[Ne-Yo:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Said its not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I..will be under reason why
And it just aint right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I cant stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just cant let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic wont affect me
And your kiss wont make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me…

[Ne-Yo:]
Yeaahhh… Oohh…

[Rihanna:]
As much i love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate that i love you soooo
And I hate how much i love you boy
I cant stand how much I need ya (cant stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just cant let you go (but I just cant let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. soo…